The Winter of my Discontent...lol

I feel discontented tonight. Can't explain it. Just the feeling that I need something more in my life. More excitement. Sometimes I worry my life will pass me by without ever feeling the sort of excitement, adventure,and contentment I yearn for. When will that come, I wonder? Lately I think a lot about "what would have happened had I chosen this instead of that?" type thoughts. Probably not productive but so true. I don't want life to become routine and I fear it might or even has. The bottomline is that what I want in life, I have not achieved and it leaves me hungry for it even more. I want to substitute what is comfortable for what will bring me lasting happiness but that takes courage.  I just want so much more of everything in life. More travel, more romance, more experience...just more.


Tonight I took Trooper on a LONG walk. Left him tired and me as well. But at least he isn't trying to eat me ;)

Reading more. I enjoy it. It relaxes me, clears my mind. I'm looking forward to this weekend. It's an extra long day and I can devote much time to just relaxing, reading, and socializing with some friends.

Oh yeah...kind of bummed out about a bird I saw. A robin was sitting in the road, not moving, not dodging traffic. I wanted to stop but was in a hurry. On the way back through, it was smashed. Someone had hit it. I can only suppose that it was stunned and perhaps I could have saved it's life had I stopped. It hurts my heart a little to think my time was more valuable to me than that little bird's life. Realistically, it probably would have died anyway ( probably stunned by a car) but just knowing I didn't do anything to try doesn't sit well. Yeah, yeah, it's just a bird...but I'm just a human.

Btw, it's cold. Bitterly cold. I hate Winter. It's pretty to look at but miserable to feel. All of my muscles are clinched in a desperate attempt to keep me warm. Winter, you can exit stage left. Now. Right now.